Feelings From The Heart

As I put Sariah to bed last night, I had a very strong desire to express the feelings of my heart. I love being Sariah's mother, I love my role as a mother. Sometimes I just feel like I can't hug her enough, or kiss her enough, and I definitely don't have the words to describe what I feel inside my heart every time she looks up at me and smiles. I almost feel like her smile, her laugh, could just heal any part of me that is sad, or lacking, or incomplete. I am reminded of a scripture in Alma where he (Ammon) says that his joy was so great it consumed his soul and made him weak. I have felt that joy and am blessed to feel it on a daily basis, and feel it every time I have the sense to put down my to-do list and just play with Sariah. I love just being on the ground with her playing - nothing makes me so happy.

I know this is cheesy, but once I put Sariah to bed, I felt the way that you feel in Fast and Testimony meeting when you know you need to bear your testimony, I just had to tell someone (and in this case - everyone) that I love my daughter and I love being a mother. I am more grateful than I can express for Heavenly Father giving me the chance to feel this kind of love, and I am grateful for the kind of person this child wants me to be, because now I know what a special spirit she really is.

The only kind of love that comes close is the love I have for my husband. The first time I saw him, I thought, "That is one hot guy!" No one can make me happier than him, no one could lead our family better, and no one can set a better example for our beautiful daughter than him. My husband is amazing, sweet, tender, strong, dedicated, and will do anything for his family. Every girl should be so lucky to be married so someone so incredible. Thank you, Jared, for being the love of my life.