Thursday, December 30, 2010

I had a bad day.

Who wouldn't love James in a witch's hat?!?

I had a bad day yesterday. I just felt like I couldn't get motivated to do anything. Laundry days are Monday and Tuesday, but last night I still had 3 piles of clean clothes piled on my bed that I needed to put away. I didn't do it. I just pushed them into the portable crib at the end of my bed (the crib is used for for Emerson) because I didn't even want to face it until today. My house was a mess, I didn't feel like cooking because something was stinking in my fridge and I didn't want to fish it out. Oh yeah, and Jared has been working from 6am till around 7pm for the last couple of weeks. Only yesterday, he worked from 6am until 10:30pm. End of the year engineer stuff. Sariah's room is an absolute mess, and I kept stepping on sharp toys which really irritated me. I thought of visiting teaching I had yet to do, with only 2 days left in the month. James' molars are coming in, so he is extra cranky. He's throwing things, throwing himself onto the floor, and is now starting to hit. It just seems like everyone needed some quiet time and time-outs yesterday because we were all in a foul mood.

Also - Sariah is being a pill. This is what she was doing during naps:
She has an unusual attachment to her toy buckets. This is how she fell asleep:
My thoughts turned to mothers who are amazing. You walk into their house, and even with small children, things are in their places. Moms who have hot home-cooked meals on the tables every night, moms who don't have dirty dishes in the sink...and I started to feel like crap. Sure, we pick up at the end of the night. Sure, I cook almost every day (except last night I ordered a pizza). Sure, my kids are healthy and happy, but for some reason I still had a really rough day.

(I miss my husband. I think that's what it boils down to - I really miss Jared.)

But you know what? I'll bet you that those moms who seem to have it all together have bad days, too. I'm sure their house isn't always picked up, and I'm sure they even take their kids to McDonald's once in a while, too. We all try really hard, and that is the important part.

(Once the year comes to a close, I will have my husband back. Date night, here we come!)

I've also decided that it's alright to have a bad day once in a while, because it makes you grateful for all of the other good days you have. And for all of you moms who have bad days and are envious of those who seem like they don't, and who feel like things are falling apart around you - hang on. You'll wake up happy, and ready to take on your role again. And remember - even those moms have bad days, too.


Amy said...

I love this post, Amber. I had a rough day yesterday too, and no, I didn't cook either. Luckily, it makes the good days better and it is so nice to remember that everyone has their bad days...even those really "put together" moms.

bedonts said...

I've totally been there, believe me! It's tough, but I want you to know that *I* think you are amazing! Smile!

Brianna said...

Oh boy, do I know those kind of days. They are rough. I am sorry you had one yesterday. I've found we all seem to have them...I don't know why we have silly moments when we think everyone else has it together but we don't...cause that's just not the case.

So here's to the start of my crazy day! I have to pack away christmas, clean the house left behind, prepare 3 days worth of lesson plans, and pack for a 4 day choir trip. It's going to be a long weekend!

Hang in there! *Hugs*

Jasmine said...

I think we've ALL been there. That's why mac'n cheese was invented :) And I can completely relate and empathize to your hubby's schedule. Mike doesn't get home until after 8pm every night and I've been doing it for 4 years :(

Karen said...

I don't think anyone is "all put together" and especially all the time. Those who have spotlessly clean houses may not cook or play with their kids. Those who play with their kids may not do other things. We all have strengths and weaknesses, no one is all strengths and no one has no weaknesses... it's just easy to see our weaknesses and compare them to other's strengths... you are an awesome mother.

Johnson-n-Johnson said...

"If you are still in the process of raising children, be aware that the tiny fingerprints that show up on almost every newly cleaned surface, the toys scattered about the house, the piles and piles of laundry to be tackled will disappear all too soon and that you will—to your surprise—miss them profoundly." President Thomas S. Monson

This has helped me numerous times! Love you Amber!

Leann said...

Amber - you are great! I read your blog and think how you must be "one of those mom's"... I really do. But this post just reminds me that we all have our days. Thanks so much for sharing... I really do appreciate the empathy we can all feel and share!