Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Who Am I?

I have struggled with this question somewhat lately. I am a wife, a mother, and a teacher. But I am also a daughter of my Heavenly Father. I know this to be true.

I have recently been blessed with a full-time online teaching position. I have prayed for this exact position for several years, and it has finally happened. The hard thing is - adjusting. I no longer feel like a great wife, an adequate mother, or an exemplary teacher. Because the learning curve with this job is huge, I don't feel like I am doing anything quite right.

I have to remember that this will pass. I will settle into a routine, I will be what I once was, and this career will greatly bless our family. And although my daily role will change daily - nurse, wicked witch (when playing dress-up), taxi cab, and chef - my most important roles will always be there. Wife. Mother. Teacher. Daughter of my Heavenly Father.


Brianna said...

I, too, have been feeling a lot of the same feelings the past few months. I am also adjusting to new changes, new roles, etc. Many days I have just felt like I couldn't do any worse...and others are better! Hang in there. You will adjust. In the meantime, you have two beautiful kiddos and a great hubby who love you and probably think you are doing a really great job! Don't forget that we are our own worst critics, and often it prevents us from seeing the many good things we are doing well!

Good luck with the new job. I'm still looking and applying any chance I get for an online teaching position. i really hope it will happen someday.

Call me some time! I'd love to get together for play time, craft time, FHE, anything at all!

Carlie said...

amber, you so totally rock. you will find your groove, and I know you are a champion at prioritizing, and you will work it out.

we say this in our house a LOT, and it is applicable- I can do hard things!